too much to handle....

I have not been here in a while and I apologize. Not like I have many readers. But O well..... this was hell trying to get back to my site. Upgrading to google blah blah blah... setting a new password and stuff, I need to stay more in touch.

Well, I went on a date, it was a nice date.... I had to ask this person out. He is older than me several years... I am not disclaiming the age. I just find him very interesting. He was perfect gentleman. He did everything a man is supposed to do on a first date. Although I asked and was willing to pay, he did not allow it. I am confused, I am use to getting my way most of the time, I just can't get that from him and is driving me crazy. I did everything right, I think... He said he will love to go out with me again but I don't know. Maybe is the age thing, but damn it I am asking to marry him. I guess I just need to give it some time. My valentine's candy was "my way", and it is right I am use to getting things my way and having control of things. I guess I need to let go and see how things work out.